"New York Rooftop Series" oil on canvas 48"x36" |
"New York Rooftop Series" oil on canvas 72"x48" |
Anyhow, I got talked into the
trip because I was curious to see if my artwork had a place there. The gallery
spaces are enormous and beautifully lit, but I cannot image my rag-tag “oeuvre”
fitting in such a slick environment. What struck me most was that the artwork I
saw all seemed to have been created for “the show.” There was no evidence of
experimentation, growth; everything was tasteful, competent but without any
challenges. Different color schemes perfect for the decorator to match with the
drapes, but otherwise all the same sizes, same frames. I couldn’t imagine doing
twenty or thirty versions of ANYTHING! I would go mad! It would feel like a
JOB!
One of the problems I always
have preparing for a one-person show is that my work evolves all the time,
especially if I’m producing steadily, working every day. I have absolutely no
capacity for repetition; in fact, if I even try to repeat myself because
something works well, I find all the life is sucked out of it. Everything even
looks like I was bored, like painting with numbers. I console myself that
Picasso had the same problem. In fact, there are at least twenty different
periods in Picasso’s artwork, ranging from Romantic Realism to Cubist
experimentation to series of murderous –looking females with teeth bared (his
version of vagina dentata), My late husband, noting my difficulty with
repetition, used to mutter that he had no idea how he lasted so long with me.
Of course, what he didn’t realize was that he too changed all the time,
providing new “problems” for me to resolve.
"New York Rooftop Series" oil on canvas 72"x48" |
My companion informed me that
a “gallerista” (those Size 4 clothes horses who sit at the desks in the
galleries) told her that the gallery she worked for paid $30k a month for rent
(not the highest amount by any means.) They are not in business to advance
“art”; they need to make the monthly nut, and hopefully even, a profit.
Unfortunately, I don’t see myself fitting in to their business model and I must
say, given their lack of interest in my work, neither do they.
BTW, since it’s obvious that
Chelsea is “dead,” does anyone know where to find the latest art scene? It’s quite possible that art really is dead
and this is not the time to be an artist anywhere. I just hope I live long
enough for the next Renaissance to occur. Maybe if Donald Trump gets elected president
(just kidding) although bad times often create the best art i.e. Weimar
Germany.